Confusing night

I think I no need sleep this few days ...

The plan I planed is changing , like too fast , like too rush . Came it so suddenly .

But I think is god trying to help me ? 

I don't know , but whatever , I just wan to  thanks god . 

I very nervous now , I lying on bed , I trying to sleep I trying my best , but I can't , my heart beating so fast , my mind can't stop working , thinking and missing , what happen to me , 

my friend asked me , Izit the things u wan? Izit the plan still going on ? 

I answered YA . 

But actually my heart is trying to hide , I trying to run away the reality , but now , I should face, I can't run , it's no way no place for me to hide again . Mayb I can continue hiding , but I can't let go forever n ever . I knew myself .

Baby , what should I gonna do , how I do ? 

I don't even can answer myself .

I just can answer myself , YES I miss that guy , and I wan meet him , YA , I just wan to do that. 

I promise myself . I won't cry . I just smile .

Jovan ( ME ) 

u not a weak girl anymore right ? 

U changed , u not a silly girl not a negative girl anymore , enjoy ur life and just smile . Be strong . Believe urself . U can do it , I can feel it .

Promise urself , u won't hurt urself anymore . Stay happy .

How good if use phone blogging an upload video or song .

I had cover some song it's my current mood , I hope can share with u all next time .

I know I'm not hong ren , I'm don't have FANS , but all I have is FRIENDS.

I can share my mood at here with all of u .

Thanks my friend that support me , thanks that guy that never wan to hiding . And thanks god help me :) 

No matter how , I just try my best to fight for my future<3